Auld Lang Syne

If i could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How i'd love to dance with my Yeh Yeh again

3 years ago in IH, at this date and about this time, i was taking a shower when one of my phone calls went unheard. All cleaned up, i crossed over to C Tower to get Jenny for dinner at the dining hall. She opened the door and told me my dad phoned her, looking for me. Wondering why my dad wanted to speak to me so urgently, i went back to my room and called home.

While waiting for dad to be put on the line, Sam spoke to me and i could hear that there were a lot of people in my house. When asked what party was going on without me, Sam merely said, "Nothing lah" and passed the phone to dad.

Daddy picked up the phone and asked where i was when he rang earlier. I told him that i was having a shower. The small talk was just a few minutes that dad hoped he could stall before having to break the news to me.

My Yeh Yeh passed away.

I stood there motionless, with my mind devoid of any thoughts. I didn't know what to say. I had to make dad repeat himself to assure myself that i heard the right thing. And unfortunately, i heard right. I cried.

Dad told me that during his last few visits to Yeh Yeh, he told my grandpa to stay strong for i was coming back to see him soon. But i guess after months of battling with illness, my Yeh Yeh was simply too tired to wait.

I dried my tears, walked over to Jenny's and told her what happened. And during dinner that night, Michelle somehow talked about crying and asked me when was the last time i shed tears, unbeknownst to what had happened a few minutes earlier.

I remember telling Joyce before i left for Australia that i was afraid bad things may happen during my stint Down Under. And sadly, it did. Till today, i feel guilty for not being able to say my last goodbye and to tell my Yeh Yeh that i am sorry for leaving him when he was sick.

Yeh Yeh, please forgive me but know that i will love you always. And i mean, always.

Rest in peace.