This May Be My Period Talking

I never like to keep my feelings a secret because to bottle up everything is not healthy. Which is why i am so darn annoyed at you. Of course, you are not the one to blame because it is me who cannot find the courage to speak my mind and to tell you how i really feel about you.

Sometimes i wonder, would things be different if i had a little more guts? But that is basically where i stop every single time. I leave myself to wonder 'what if'.

I guess i don't really want to tell you because deep down, i know the answer is not going to be something i want to hear. Plus, i am scared that things will deteriorate from then on and being able to see you but not say hi to you would really suck balls.

I know i think too much. I really try to not be that way but every time you are involved, i just become like that. You have that effect on me because you are someone i like. Someone i actually give a rat's ass about. Someone who is one of the few in the past years who can make me feel this way. Someone whose attitude attracted me way before the looks (which is very rare in my case).

Argh, if only i can just go up to you and say, "Ding dong, i like you lah. Now please give me a chance and like me back."