Wow. I'm 23. That's only 2 more years to go before i become a quarter of a century old.
But you know what? I am surprisingly okay with it. I don't want to turn back time. I don't want to be 18 again. I am comfortable.
Growing up means learning and experiencing things that a younger me would not understand. Without the disappointments, how will i know who i can really count on on a rainy day? If i did not get cut off my allowances, i will not know how to be financially semi-independent (i still live under my parents' roof so technically, i'm not all that independent yet).
Plus, i love the fact that i'm no longer schooling but am now working. They say enjoy school life because work is going to be hectic. I say, school is fun but work is a whole new experience to love too. I feel more in control of my life. And this may sound odd but i was so excited when i went for my first self-paid holiday this year and when i received my first bill ever! Responsibilities are scary but when fulfilled, they give you a sense of pride. A feeling that says, "Congratulations. You are now ready to take charge of how your future will turn out."
With that said, I'm still slightly disappointed because i have yet to learn how to drive. And i don't know if i'm making the right choice by choosing to spend on a holiday next year than on my first car.
Also, I've only got a little over 4 months before i hit the 2-year mark in my job. When i took on my current job, i gave myself 2-years to settle down into the working life before heading out to conquer my career goal or at least move into AMP. I've gotten comfortable with this job. I'm scared of change. What if my new boss is horrible? What if they don't like me? I talked to my editor about this and she said, "Don't get comfortable. You cannot lose sight of your goal!" Couldn't have said it better. Lord, please give me that chance and i'll take care of the rest.
So yeah, growing up is scary but it's just another step towards knowledge and life that i am more than willing to take. Bring on 24!
But you know what? I am surprisingly okay with it. I don't want to turn back time. I don't want to be 18 again. I am comfortable.
Growing up means learning and experiencing things that a younger me would not understand. Without the disappointments, how will i know who i can really count on on a rainy day? If i did not get cut off my allowances, i will not know how to be financially semi-independent (i still live under my parents' roof so technically, i'm not all that independent yet).
Plus, i love the fact that i'm no longer schooling but am now working. They say enjoy school life because work is going to be hectic. I say, school is fun but work is a whole new experience to love too. I feel more in control of my life. And this may sound odd but i was so excited when i went for my first self-paid holiday this year and when i received my first bill ever! Responsibilities are scary but when fulfilled, they give you a sense of pride. A feeling that says, "Congratulations. You are now ready to take charge of how your future will turn out."
With that said, I'm still slightly disappointed because i have yet to learn how to drive. And i don't know if i'm making the right choice by choosing to spend on a holiday next year than on my first car.
Also, I've only got a little over 4 months before i hit the 2-year mark in my job. When i took on my current job, i gave myself 2-years to settle down into the working life before heading out to conquer my career goal or at least move into AMP. I've gotten comfortable with this job. I'm scared of change. What if my new boss is horrible? What if they don't like me? I talked to my editor about this and she said, "Don't get comfortable. You cannot lose sight of your goal!" Couldn't have said it better. Lord, please give me that chance and i'll take care of the rest.
So yeah, growing up is scary but it's just another step towards knowledge and life that i am more than willing to take. Bring on 24!
1 comment:
Happy birthday~ I'm totally feeling the same as you~~ About the 1st holiday thingy, and secondly, I'm afraid to change as well. I need to look for another job now... :)
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